I've been in a depressed mood latley.  I don't really know why.  Hopefully it will end soon.  School is school.  Soccer is soccer.  I hate boys.  The end.

~ Amanda

She`s the type of qirl that can be so hurt- -but
can still look at you  &  smile  ;; the type of qirl
who is willinq to briqhten your day  --   even if
she can`t manage to briqhten her own ;;  she`s
the type of qirl that will still love you, even>>
if you dont love her [ back ]

sometimes i like to
dance around in my underwear, using a
brush as my microphone, singing love songs
about the one boy i love, who just doesnt
know it yet

the truth is, we only hide because we want to be found
we only walk away because we want to see who will
follow us. & we only break hearts to see who will mend them

School started Tuesday.  It was the worste first day of school ever.  But I'll get over it.  Most of my classes are okay.  I have a lot of people I know in all of them, not really any friends.  But at least I have people to talk to.  We're only three days into school and I'm already ready for summer.  I can't wait for fall break.  Soccer is in full swing now and pretty soon I'll be going to tounements every month or so.  Which makes me sad, cause I won't get to go to church on Sunday mornings as much.  Sad day for me.  Oh well, I still have my bible.  I guess that's it.  I'll talk to you all later.  Love you much. 

~ Amanda

i bet if you didn't fight your feelings,
your life would be a whole lot easier

nobody takes a picture of something they want to forget

in life you gotta take some risks. or else you'll never find what you really want

we only want what we can't have
but we never know what we have
until it's gones\

econd & keep your foot on first

sometimes even when your having
the time of your life, you can't help
but stop & think about how much
you just miss the good old days

Hmmmm, life is pretty boring.  I broke up with David, but that was a long time coming.  He turned out to be real mean.  I don't need a boy anyways.  Soccer is starting up again.  We had practice all this week and I like my new team mates.  They're much nicer than the ones I had last year.  Ummmm, school starts in less than two weeks and I'm actually kinda ready for it.  I've been getting kinda bored just sitting at home all day.  I'm going to miss getting to sleep in all of the time though.  I think that is all for now.  See you soon.  Love you.

~ Amanda

My mom is making me go to a camp with my old team next week and I really don't want to.  I quit the team because they didn't like me and I didn't like them.  I'm so mad that my mom is making me go.  I protest being a kid and not being able to make my own decisions.  I quit at life. Good day.

After all the broken hearts I have finally figured out my problem. I fall in love a little to late. I guard my heart like sum kind of castle. I dont let them in when they want. I wait until they are long gone & then i realize they were the one I wanted all along.

"Hey girls, you're beautiful. Don't look at those stupid magazines with stick like models. Eat healthy and exercise. That's all. Don't let anyone tell you you're not good enough. You are good enough; you are too good. Love your family with all your heart and listen to it. You are gorgeous, whether you're a size 3 or a size 14. It doesn't matter what you look like on the outside, as long as you're a good person; as long as you respect others. I know it's been told hundreds of times before, but it's true

What's life with out problems?  If we never had bad days, how would we have good days?  If life was perfect there would be no erasers, or kissing and making up.  You just gotta learn to deal with what's thrown at you and remember that no matter how hard life may seem, there's always someone worse off than you.

& the best feeling in the world is knowing you have
someone you can go to when you're in a bad mood
knowing they'll make everything better

boy: whats your biggest fantasy?
girl: to be kissed in the rain .. yours?
boy: to be the one kissing you in the rain

the best kind of friend is the kind
you can sit on the swings with
never say a word to each other
&& you walk away feeling like it was
the best conversastion of your life

i believe in sleeping in.
I believe in giving 100% when you only have 80.
I believe in love, arguing,
& jamming out by yourself in the car.
I believe in kisses on the forehead.
I believe in long kisses, smiling til your cheeks hurt,
& laughing until you cry.I believe in being silly
and crazy with your friends. I believe in taking chances
and making mistakes.I believe in having someone
tell you that you're beautiful.
I believe in swinging on swings
& running in the rain. I believe in miracles
& random acts of kindness.
I believe in saying hello to anyone & everyone.
I believe in second chances.
and i believe that everyone deserves one

the beast: "i want to get her something special."
cogsworth: "well, there's always the usual: chocolates, flowers, and promies you don't intend to keep." 
          ++ beauty & the beast

CIY was amazing!  I love all of my youth group to death!  Leesi is here and we're having a blast!  The freshsunday concert is tomarrow and it's going to be a ton of fun!  Welp, that's all for now!  See you all soon!

~ Amanda

in every girls life there are three guys
one that she loves, one that she hates
& one that she cant get enough of.. &
in the end .. they're all the same guy

i'd rather have you as a friend
then not have you in my life at all

sometimes when you hold out for everything
you walk away with nothing
* Ally McBeal *

remember in 3rd grade, how swinging on the swings was the best part of your day? where did all that innocence go -- down the drain, along with happiness & having fun times with friends who would later stab you in the back. swinging on the swings has been replaced by ipods, boyfriends, & broken hearts

sad thing is, you can still
love someone, & be wrong for them
* Elvis Presley *

do what you love & you will find someone
who loves the same thing. dont look for love,
beg for love, or suffer for love. just live

CIY in two days!  I can't wait!  See you all soon!

~ Amanda